29th June 2009

Cute Alicia. Photo taken by Ms Agnes Zhu with my HP

Went for my facial & neck treatment today, diamond peeling. Hmmm, the feeling was quite good and i had a good chat with my beautician. Actually thought of signing package there but i really don't like the auntie who is the consultant there. So bitchy. Don't want to let her earn the commission lo. Haha.

After facial went to find Dar Dar again...Haha, think his boss see me till fed up also lor. Dinner was sumptuous, BBQ Stingray, BBQ Sotong, Fried Kang Kong With Cuttlefish, Satay, Poh Pia, Sambal Lala & my favourite Gong Gong. Yummy... All thanks to Alicia who pay & Eric who buy. Thanks people...

Think i ate too much, stomach feels bit of weird weird, feel like vomiting too. Haha. Greedy Me... Slap*

28th June 2009

Jernise is so sweet today. We were sitting on a chair facing each other than i told her

Me: Mei mei kiss mummy.

Jernise than take out her pacifier and kiss me.

Me: Mei mei call mummy

Jernise: MaMa

OMG i feel like flying lor. It's the 1st time she call me so clearly looking at me. So happy... Little jernise finally learn to call MaMa. If not i always felt so jealous Jernise always call Papa. Haha

Just before bedtime, i was changing Jayden and he told me

Jayden: Mummy can i go and find auntie?

Me: Ok lo but Mei Mei is sleeping so you cannot wake her up ok?

Jayden: Ok i wouldn't.

Me: Ok la than goodnight and give mummy a goodnight kiss.

Jayden: A mummy, but i want to sleep liao you cannot scold me ok?

Me: Huh??? When did i scold u?

Jayden: Yes, Papa scold me last night before i sleep.

OMG he is super "Small Gas" lor, last night thing still can remember. Haha.

27th June 2009

Something eerie happen today when i was alone at home today. When dad brought Aileen & Jernise down to fetch Jayden from school, i went into my room. Just as i closed my room's door, i heard dad's room's door closed by itself. It did not slam very hardly instead it sounds like got people purposely closed it.
My goose pimples all comes out still i decided to check it out. I went out of my room, the weather is so humid and definitely no wind at all. My heart beats so fast worried that i might just see something or someone. I forced myself to be brave & open the room's door. Luckily or unfortunately i saw nothing. The feeling was so strange & i don't know why it reminds me of my mother in law. Maybe she's back for a visit? Hahaha.
Hmmm, stayed at home the whole day today playing with the kids. Waited for Dar til 8pm for my "XO Fish Head Noodle" dinner.
Jayden was scolded by Dar Dar just before bedtime as he throw a ball on Dar's dinner. Lols....

26th June 2009

My Samsung Star, His N97

1.30pm, getting ready for interview appointment with Sincere today @ 3pm, suddenly recieve a call from them that they want to bring forward to 2.30pm cause the HR Vice President isn't free at 3pm. WTF. Still haven't finish doing my make up... Haiz, luckily Dar drive me go so i manage to reach @ 2.30pm. But silly me, was trying each floor to look for Sincere's office only to find out that i went to Tower 4 instead of 3. Lols. In the end reached at 2.45pm instead. Haha.

The 2nd interview was so informal as well, mostly talking about my kids. Haha. Everything went smoothly and i was hired. So happy, so excited.... Although the basic isn't fantastic but the commission is not bad. After few months of job hunting i've finally found. Yes!!!

After interview we went to go Loyang "Dua Bei Gong" to fetch my mum as she wants to go Starhub & settle my Sis's sim card. Finally help her settle le, if not mum kept calling & pester me.

Than we went to Blk 631 and have our dinner with mum & i accompany her drink a bottle of Tiger. The coffeeshop is full of "Ti Ko Pei" and the beer girls there is so "open" letting those "Ti Ko Pei" touch. So disgusting. It's just like low class night club. Can touch & no need pay GST, Service Charge & Tips. Lox

Lastly accompany Dar to JP to buy his N97 and he bought a Samsung Star for me. Hmmm unlike N97 which has alot of function my Samsung Star don't have Wi-Fi nor 3G. But who cares cause i can't resist Pink temptation. Haha.

25th July 09

Thought that i will feel better today ended up my mood was still so lousy. But when i saw Jernise and she kept pestering me to play with her than i starts to get better. (So Cute) Dar came back early today cause he's not feeling well.
Dar knows that i am not in the mood so he suggested going to JP Dian Xiao Er for dinner. Maybe breathing fresh air does help, i felt alot better.
Haiz still got a 2nd interview tomorrow. Boring...

24th June 09 (Feeling So Bad)

I am not feeling well, not physically but emotionally. I don't feel like eating, don't feel like talking to anybody, don't feel like going anywhere, worst, don't even feel like playing with the kids. Why? I don't know.... Just suddenly feel my skies are dark, my life are lacking of security, my mind is in a whirl...

Hmmmm, what's causing me to have this kind of feelings? I really don't know. Really hoping that tomorrow will be a better day....

小时后的爱情梦想

小时后经常幻想自己是个公主，住在一个美丽的城堡，过着衣食无忧的日子。有一天，有个王子，穿着白色的衣服，骑着白色的马，手里拿着白色的玫瑰，在白雪纷纷的夜晚里向我求婚。我会和他过着幸福快乐的日子。慢慢长大时才知道“诙姑娘”的故事只发生在童话里。

在读小学时就幻想自己将来的老公会是刘德华，那么的高大，英俊，萧洒。有一天他会突然出现在我家门口，带着他迷人的笑容，帅气的面孔，来迎娶我。已后就过着美满的生活。后来才发觉他是那么进却那么远。

上中学时，就想着嫁个有钱人又帅的老公。他会开着豪华轿车，左手拿着红色玫瑰，右手拿着钻石戒指，跟我求婚。我们会住在一个又大又漂亮的房子过着很多人羡慕的生活。交了男朋友已后才知道那是永远不可能实现的梦。

王子，刘德华，有钱又帅，那是我对爱情的幻想。回想起来，真的是又可笑又幼稚。但是人若没幻想，没希望，生活不是很没乐趣吗？

你是否和我一样，曾经幻想着永远不可能实现的梦想？？？？